This post is not for anyone , just my rantings
I bet i'm crazy . Why cant i just get somethings out of my head !Its driving me crazy soon .Woke up again , the numerous times , that dreamis a dream never come true so please, i would rather it be forgottenthen to torture me everyday.I think i'll be grey hair soon .Having so many things going thru my mind.Gee , why cant life be simpler ? I'm really tired,
tired of myself ...
tired of my faults ...
tired of why it always turn out to be my fault.
I'm so sorry to the people who had to hear me out
not much people i could talk to
is not that they werent trustworthy enough
is just that they werent the right people.
But yes pity me , things i cant say
forbidden to say ... but those words and lies ...
carrying them makes me so tired ...
i'm collapsing, carrying the blames and words i never say ...
many that i know some that i dont
what made worst, those assumptions ...
sometimes i wonder, should i pity those people or myself
who has the truth by their side ?
but anyway the spoken words for sure ,
that both werent of importance , i guess ...
but the world is so , why bother then ?
Sorry people its early in the morning ...
but i woke up with too many emotions ...
i have to let some out, as secrets and words i can never tell ...
shall bury them, find me a coffin please ?
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