I decided to say out how i feel...
it started with a call from our gl, initially when i heard ... i tot he is at the hospital with her ... but when he told me she left us forever, i couldnt believe it. i couldnt compose myself and called my mum. my parents left the dinner to send me home. i am grateful my family stayed with me and tried their best to console me. then i tried to sleep and was falling in and out of sleep. i dint wanted to cry when i went for SNS dryrun. but when people start to ask me whether am i okay, i couldnt hold back my tears. after in the day i felt slightly better, thanks to all the people that show concern. then we arranged and met up to go to her wake. i dint cry there, but the feeling was mixed and complicated.
i still remember it was just two three weeks when i heard the news about our senior who was my cousin's cousin's. remember seeing my cousin blog said about how she felt. never did i know, the next moment , our friend will leave us forever...
in my memory, she is always warm , smiley and cheerful. she is well-liked by everyone. hope she received all the wishes and may she rest in peace and stay happy on the other end of the rainbow. also hope that her family and friends stay strong.
thanks for people who comfort me , i will be try to be strong and move forward. she will always be so warm and cheerful in our memories.
take care girl
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